today …

was a good day. it was one of those days that made you forget all about the crap that goes on in my life. it was a good day. and then i talked to poppie .. and poppie likes to ask a lot of questions about a lot of things and poppie feels that there needs to be a plan and i need to have a reason for everything i do. i do not agree with poppie on this. i may not be the brightest and i may have a lot of faults, but goddamnit! why not let me take a ride out? why is it so wrong that i have to rely on someone else for a ticket? do you think that i want to? this is not how i planned my life.

but this is the hand that i got dealt. i either choose to play my hand wisely .. or not at all and i’m getting real sick of not playing the game. i’m not going to sit around and wait on love. i’m not going to sit around and wait for me to make enough money to where i can afford to go back to school and still be home for my children. I am getting old. i don’t have time to sit around anymore.

i don’t have the patience to explain this as i need too. maybe someday.